So I've been doing a lot of thing which it's not all just reflecting on stuff, like here lately ive been having to think about what I'm saying/going to say to one of my friends to make sure what I say is in her best interest rather than my own because in my opinion she always comes first. Now i have been doing some thinking as in reflecting like how I miss hugs from that really fickle bitch i told off but the fact is someone should have told her off a lot sooner so I don't regret what I did but man her hugs were great ~.~ me and an old "friend" got to talking about her not to long ago and he was saying how I practically kissed her ass and she treated me like shit which yeah I did do my best to make her happy, i actually bought her a candy bar every other day for a year just to keep her happy but boy was that a waste of money. Now i was thinking about more recently when this guy was talking to me like i was some petty child with a crush on someone and it was such a surprise because events that followed kind of changed everything for me but I'm thinking it was for the best because I was obviously just a pawn then. I do hope he got what he had coming to him tho because he was a smug little basterd and if it was in person I wouldn't have been such a nice person. I really do to much thinking and a much as I hate to say it, I'm someone who lives in the past which is a trait i need to work on.